A general feeling of numbness.....
Jul. 16th, 2003 02:18 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mmcnealyThis has just not been a happy day. Things were going relativly well until I had to sit down and write Matt his one year anniversary card for our one year wedding anniversary on August 3rd so it would have a chance of getting to him by the date.
I love my husband, and I don't regret marrying him or that he is in the Navy or that we have only spent about 45 days (and not many of them contiguous) of our first year together and the rest seperated.... It just stinks to high heaven to be reminded of it.
Right now I am just feeling numb about life and wishing that I was having a normal first year of marriage. I don't blame anyone for him being away, especially not the President, because he would have gone away anyway, just to the Caribean instead of the Persian Gulf. The Navy goes on deployments for 6 months on a regular basis, its part of life, I am OK with that. I am just in the most non-cheerful mood I have been in for a very long time, and not even chocolate is helping me get out of it.
I love my husband, and I don't regret marrying him or that he is in the Navy or that we have only spent about 45 days (and not many of them contiguous) of our first year together and the rest seperated.... It just stinks to high heaven to be reminded of it.
Right now I am just feeling numb about life and wishing that I was having a normal first year of marriage. I don't blame anyone for him being away, especially not the President, because he would have gone away anyway, just to the Caribean instead of the Persian Gulf. The Navy goes on deployments for 6 months on a regular basis, its part of life, I am OK with that. I am just in the most non-cheerful mood I have been in for a very long time, and not even chocolate is helping me get out of it.
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Date: 2003-07-16 02:51 pm (UTC)Re:
Date: 2003-07-16 03:19 pm (UTC)::Hug::
Date: 2003-07-17 02:41 pm (UTC)I must say I don't know precisely how you feel, but something Close to it.
I've been with my Darling Boyfriend for about two and a half years, and we go to schools in different states. He is in NROTC and going to flight school after college... then all the Navy stuff. I am not looking forward to Lonely Times in the future, and am not enjoying them now.
I suppose we must find things to hold on tightly to... good female friendship, hobbies, hopefully jobs we enjoy... while our Loved Ones are Away.